Feeling good yet not good

I was laying in bed thinking, staring at my ceiling. When suddenly I was filled with this urge to just leave. Just pack up and go. Where? No where in particular, I just want to go. I have this feeling, this need for change and adventure in my life. However, there’s something holding me back.I can’t quite put my finger on it. Maybe the experiences of the changes itself is scaring the hell outta me.Part of me maybe fears the change. The result of the journey, what lies out there, the obstacles that I will face..SCARES ME !

Is that really so hard to do? I don’t think so. So why am I compelled to make a change and yet drawn to stay? The reasons are still unknown to me. Maybe when I finally leave I’ll know what it was that had drawn me to stay.Now that Im ready for it , Im really really scared where I'll end up. Maybe be in something good or maybe in something real bad ! Dang ! Here starts my "Second innings" ! Wish me luck !