Argh !
Gah. I don't know. I just haven't been in too good of a mood lately.But it is hard to be in good spirits when I know there is someone scrutinizing almost everything I do.
I hate when it gets me in a bad mood, because I don't WANT to be in a bad mood, and logically I know its not worth feeling bad over. But I can't help it. And then once I'm in a bad mood, I start thinking about everything else that is wrong in my life, which only perpetuates the crappy mood.
I don't know what it is about here anymore. Maybe there are too many reminders of things I'd rather forget, or maybe there's just a negative energy here. I don't know, but whatever it is, I want to get away from it , from this state of mind this place puts me in. I can't wait until I'm able to feel good again and not feel bad about it.
posted by forbidden.angel @ 4:07 AM
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Argh.. look at you.. You still seem to be feeling low and dull.. I don know wat exactly keeps u in bad mood but I know one thing for sure... you badly need a mind diversion..
Me being a regular reader of your blogs have been missing your great sense of humor lately.. Com'on.. Cheer up..:)
All that I can do for you is to dedicate this song just to bring tht smile back...
Click here
Keep smiling.. :)
Oh my freaking gawd !! lol ! dat was way too cute of u Harish ! thank u so much ! Seriously ! That really brightened my day up !! Jeez thanks dude !!
Bingoo... Mission Accomplished!!!
Now get back your usual witty mood n pen down a nice blog n make my day.. quick quick.. :)
Every thing in life is a balance i feel.After a few hyperexcited outings people tend to have a day off .Might sound like a cliche but its cos of these moments that you learn to appreciate happiness.Sometimes its not that bad to feel low for a while but mind you not over do it.sometimes we tend to lose our way thinking about a problem,get carried away.Negative thinking prevails.In the process we think about a lot of ways in which things in our life can go wrong.Its like watching the things under microscope,its like making moutains out of molehills.Most of the time,whih we realise later, all we need is ,a friendly intereaction and empathising interaction,a melodious song,a good pastry ,a long walk ,reading a book ,as a matter of fact anything different from your regular stuff can do the job.put you right back in healthy mood..so most of the time the problem lies within ourselves ,the way we think .thats when one needs to be optimistic.As they say failures teach you how to be succesful.Every things a part of the learning process called life.Friends are so important whenever theres such a bout.Friends help you,most of the time, by being passive recepients of your insightful thoughts in such moments, giving you a feeling that your frustration dint go unheard.I feel most of us want a witness to our lives, someone to stay there and take notice,empathise.most of the marriages are still standing cos of this very reason i think.I Feel the pressure of peoples scrutiny when i try and please them.Thats one thing, everyone should realise,is an impossible task.I try being myself,in the process disappointing few people in different ways but ultimately im being what i am.If someone doesnt approve of what im doing ,its fine with me .i dont expect evryone one to,cos of the fact that no two people are the same .if some one doesnt approve most of the stuff i do ,they are just not compatible.I cant carry their burden in a long run any ways.so in the end ill be surrounded by like minded people which is my goal.sometimes when we are in trouble we feel threatened we think short term.all you need to think one thing in your mind====whats this so called problem gonna mean to me ten years from now.most of the time that solves it.next thing i think when i feel low is ,ill be jumping with joy crackin lame jokes in a couple of days anyways, so lets wait and watch karke.works fine for me.im almost sure that this article just put you in deeper thoughts than .....you know.i wish it helped .i noticed that harish has already done the job .So this this article is mostly about other things that you can think WHEN YOU ARE FEELING LOW about and feel more miserable hehe .hopefully not.jus kidding .
Preetham..thank u so much for ur comments..it really got me thinking..loved all of ur comments be it for this section or me time or 50things...Thank u for takin so much time out ! I really love the way u think..u shud be writing a blog too ! Id be the first one to read it !
Preetham.. U rock!!! r u the one with grey hair???? hehe just kiddin.... I just said "you badly need a mind diversion" and u really took time to elaborate on that n make her feel good.. Too good buddy..
Ms Angel... you`ve seen the depths of sorrow.. its time to meet the heights of happiness...!!
this is the kinda of stuff i like talking about harish.But dont remember holding such a discussion in real life.People are so caught up in having so called fun,such kinda insightful dont feature in the discussion.People dont have time for such stuff.such topics are considered astha channel stuff you know, sadly.No wonder most people live confused lives not knowing what they really want in life,never content with what they have and therefore never have peace of mind.Im sure if i held this converstion over the table i would always feel conscious that im driving the other person to boredom and ill be right most of the time .Im glad to have this conversation and not worry about such silly stuff.Its like ive done myslef a favour by getting it outta
my system.
Lol ! PReetham ! whr do i start from !?! Uve commented on every single blog of mine ! anyways thanks for all dat and Hey ! Lesser end is a frnd of mine..those comments were for dat Jungli raja who was so against my blogs..lol ! i dint publish dat comment anyways !
yesterday i took my tata for a long drive,,on my bike .....ok.due to water on the road the bike skidded and i lost control for a moment.Naturally,my tatas heart was in his mouth for a moment.he cried"orai slow ga poni ra kinda padithe na pallu ralthai"...............then both us started laughing cos he has no teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeth ......was funny and my tata is quite a character he works out evry morning .the moment i wake up i see him with a dumbell in his hand
LOL ! how cutee !! He works out every morning ?! lol ! mee tattaya ni chusi nuvvu nerchukovalsindi chala undi anumata !
my todays fortune says ----me and my wife shall live happily ever after and i know its true----as long as we dont meet eachother that is heheh
yesterday was an awesome day. ok.i got back in touch with my tenth class freinds after like 8 years or so.we met over a dinner.ok. each one was from an entirely different profession and we had absolutely nothing in common and werent that good friends back then either .we hit it off instantaneously,talking to each other with the same fevour like old times.Initially i thought nothing much is happenning in their lives otherwise why would they be so enthu bout meeting high school pals after 8yrs,never in touch in the mean while.ok.But i was pleasantly surprised.theyve done well for themselves.we talked for 4hrs and i dint look at my watch even once.i never heard of a more varied group===
me a doc
sandy ==an aspiring actor,model and runs a pharmaceutical company
rajiv==has a car garage which suups up the engines for racing and owns theatres
snigdha ====psycologist
karlin ====into arts and painting along with being brahmi software engineer
sravanthi==makes animation movies,just returned form us and opened her own company
raghu===gokarting champ in his agegroup from hyd and owns a hotel
srujana==housewife married with kids
saikiran==pilot from indian airforce academy
absolutely nothing in common maaaaaan .was great fun.Pleasant change.so my point is sometimes life needs a change.Most of the ties change is a good thing.every thing in life happens for the good.when we get used to doing something for quite sometime it becomes the way of your life.you establish a cosy corner in this world and become comfortable and get used to it .The only thing thats constant in life is change and that thing has to catch up sooner or later
Its natural to have fears and apprehensions while starting afresh ,entering a new phase.Most important thing,here, is for us to believe that its for our own good.Most of the people lead miserable lives, HOPING for a better future.one has to keep his hopes up and carry on with the ever enlightenening journey called life,be an audience to your own life,enjoy the drama.have fun .And i have no clue why im sending this to you.thanks for your time though.
prankster preetham tips .....
sit on a plastic chair(neelkamal) with feet lifted off the ground onto the chair, mind you,not touching anyother object either.fold your legs.ask your friend to hit the back of the chair with a towel(turkey towel,heavy ones)for five minutes then touch anyone to give em the SHOCK of their lives.we managed to do that to everyone in our college, was fun,,,their expressions and stuff its like watching gags live .
PS:do not touch the ground while touching your friend
Who are u man ?! who are u ?!?!? U have no clue why ur tellin me all dat but i swear to gawd..im loving each and every bit of it. Thank YOU so much for UR TIME..how did u even come across my blog ?! I so wanna know it .. i so wanna know how did this miracle happen..u commenting me and teachin me so much ! I so wanna knw how did i ever meet this amazing amazing personality !
Your remarks are very flattering.Coming from you,fills me with a false sense of pride.Its hard to keep my foot firmly GROUNDED but since i know for a fact that i dont deserve most of the stuff you said .Its just cos youre sweet, you are saying that... im not related to you in any remote way.so ,yeah,my clicking on your blog is a sheer accident( count my lucky stars).I never had the time to reply to blogs before today.I never even understood why people write em in the first place, cos most of the time they contained current affairs and some silly santa jokes.But thats a thing of the past now.I ve never come across a person whod put blogs to such good use.I was amazed ,at how you channelised your negative energy in such a positive way.I admire your courage for penning down a candid revelation of your saga.I was overwhelmed with the very first article i came across cos i found some striking similarities with what i have experienced(i never dreamt of putting my feelings together in such a wonderful way).I havent met many girls who know themselves so well.It takes courage to be yourself these days.your communication skills are very impressive.i admire you and im in love with your blog.
.coming from you its hard to keep my foot firmly planted on the ground but
In our clinicals batch there were three other guys namely prashanth,pradeep and chotu ok.my professr once asked me ,man ive never seen you around but your attendance is sufficient,i dont know what to say so i wanted to say "prashanth ,pradeep,chotu, kani pinchani nalugo studente ra preetham ante."""hehe stupid na
I have always assosciated with crazy stuff like this.HAD i started aBLOG id name it crazy shit.com
and whenever people call me stupid i go like
hey """im not stupid im cupid """"karke
one look at me saying that im sure youll laugh your guts out hehe.
im preetham .im a doc.i graduated last year.got my visa.Ill be pushing off to usa in six months to one year from now.presently at home, 24,7, preparing for a couple of exams.I had cut down on a lot of luxuries offlate cos i had to prepare for these really tough exams you know.dint watch any movies,meet friends or party for a considerable period of time now.But for the last two days i spent more time on your blog than with my books and strangely enough i dint feel guilty that i lost focus over my studies hehe.you should be proud of yourself. i could relate so much with your blog THAT IT SEEMS SURREAL and i learnt a lot from it too.In a way it helped me turn a page in my life.Now tell me bout yourself.im interested.If thats too much to ask for, hehe i still have your blog .
GRE should be cake walk for you
i found one awesome article on the net im sure youll like it.you needed it a couple of months back but its a little lengthy my friend mailed it to me ill copy paste if you are interested .its similar to SO BE IT stuff youve written.what say
BRING IT ON !!
there comes a time........
a time comes in your life when you finally get it...
when in the midst of all your fears and insanity you
stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice
inside your head cries out--ENOUGH!
enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on.
and, like a child quieting down after a blind
tantrum,your sobsbegin to subside, you shudder once or
twice, you blink back your trears and through a mantle
of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through
new eyes.this is your awakening.you realsie that its
time to stop hoping and waiting for something to
change or for happiness, safety and security to come
galloping over the next horizon.
you come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince
Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the
real world there aren't always fairy tales endings(or
beginings for that matter) and that any guarantee of
happiness ever after must begin with you and in the
process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
you awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and
that not everyone will always love, appreciate or
approve of who or what you are...and that's OK.and you
learn the importance of loving and championing
yourself and in the process a sense of new found
confidence is born of self approval.
you stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to
accept people as they are and overlook their short
comings and human frailties and in the process a sense
of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.you
realise that much of the way you view yourself and the
world around you,is as a result of all the messages
and opinions that have been ingrained in to your
psyche. and you begin to shift through all the crap
you have been fed about how you should behave, how you
should look and how much you should weigh what you
should wear and where you should stop and what you
should drive how and where you should live and what
you should do for a living, who you should sleep with,
who you should marry and what you should expect of a
marriage, the importance of having and raising
children or what you owe your parents.
you learn to open up to new worlds and different
points of view. and you begin reassessing and
redefining who you are, what you really stand for. you
learn the difference between wanting and needing and
you begin to discard the doctrines and values you have
outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin
with and in the process you learn to go with your
instincts.you learn that it is truly in giving that we
receive. then you learn about love.romantic love and
familial love.how to love, how much to give in
love,when to stop giving and when to walk away.you
learn not to project your needs or your feelings on to
a relationship.you learn that you will not be more
beautiful, more intelligent,more lovable or important
because of the man on your arm or the child that bears
your name.you learn to look at relationships as they
really are and not as you would have them be. you stop
trying to control people, situations and outcomes.
you look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact
that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 and
you stop trying to compete with the image inside your
head and agonising over how you stack up.
you learn, that for the most part, in life you get
what you believe you deserve...and that much of life
truly is a self-fulfilling prophency.you learn that
anything worth achieving is worth working for and that
wishing for something to happen is different from
working towards making it happen.
more importantly, you learn that in order to achieve
success you need direction,discipline and
perseverance.you also learn that no one can do it all
alone and that it's OK to risk asking for help.you
learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the
great robber baron of all time...FEAR itself. you
learn to step right into and through your fears
because you know that whatever happens you can handle
it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to
live life on your terms.and you learn to fight for
your life and not to squander it living under a cloud
of impending doom.
you learn that negative feelings such as anger,envy
and resentment must be understood and redirected or
they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the
universe that surrounds you. you learn to admit when
you are wrong and to build bridges instead of
walls.you learn to be thankful and take comfort in
many of the simple things we take for granted,things
that millions of people upon the earth can only dream
about:a full refrigerator,clean running watre,a soft
warm bed,a long hot shower.
slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself
by youself and make yourself a promise to never betray
yourself and to never ever settle for less than your
heart's desire.you hang a wind chime outside your
window so you can listen to the wind.and you make it a
point to keep smiling,to keep trusting,and to stay
open to every wonderful possibility.
finally, with courage in your heart and with God by
your side you take astand,you take a deep breath and
you begin to design the life you want to live as best
as you can...
Ok, This is my first time on your blog... Good stuff ... and about ur latest writing ...
Bad and good moods are relative ... It just that ... when we fail on doing something ... and some one criticizes about that ... we start to think about all bad things happened to us in the past at once ... and thats like putting salt on the wound ... instead think all good things .. happened ... its tough ... but ... not impossible ....
Bye and Take care
few months ago, a nerve wrecking incident happened
I was driving back home as usual in my dads car ok.There was a steep slope ok...... I was driving casually.Suddenly a bicycle whizzed past and it hit the pavement and the person fell down, hitting the pavement hard.I WAS EXPECTING HIM TO GET UP BUT HE WASNT .It was late in the night, i dint want any issues, so i thought of driving past him.Suddenly the doc in me woke up(hehhe ENDUKOCHCHINA DURADA) and i stopped the car got out of it .No one was around.
I tried waking the guy up,but he was unconcious.Then I tried stopping the cars passing by for water.Finally one guy stopped gave water and drove past.In a couple of minutes ,people gathered around,i asked them to,help me out, get him into my car, we will take him to appollo karke.THEY SAID"""endukala careless driving chesi guddesav"""
i was shocked at that remark.I looked back and to my disbelief
Right infront of the car was his slipper, followed by his bicycle then this guy.Believe ,me it dint look too good .All the people, around, started accusing me of a lot of things.Initially i tried convincing them that i dint hit him ,but in vain.............(situation was tense and people started abusing ,i could sense that it can get physical anytime now) Thankfully,the guy regained conciousness --....one guy asked him, how it happened . He told them that he hit the pavement and fell, thankfully.I told him hell need a couple of stitches and one guy volutereed to drop him by the hospital...i was relieved.For a second the whole thing scared the living daylights outta me.man that was a close shave.Not a pleasant situation to be in.
None of them were ready to help him out but everyone was immensely interested in abusing me .Sometimes life, CUTS YOU a raw deal but thats just the way life is .you just have accept it AND live with it, i guess.Even today, when i recollect that incident,it sends a shiver down my spine and i start sweating.I couldnt stop myself from thinking how bad things could have been had he not regained conciousness.(manchitananiki value lekunda poindi ra bai )I havent been able to decide one thing,whether i got lucky or unlucky .......... now thats for you to decide
whowwwwwwwwwww ! scary !
oye aaa chair trick try chesava.?????mast fun untadi.
ilanti yedava panulu chala chesa college lo.interest unte cheptha ,savadobbuthunnadu anukunte light.okie
take care .have loads of fun.bye.
LOL ! ala emi ledu preetham ! its interesting ! all the stuff u tell ! nice !
AITHE KACHUKO(denne chachhindi gorre antaru ma lingo lo hehe)
once i went to A footwear store annttu.MISSION HEELS UNNA SHOE nenu koncham short abba.
so i asked him"koncham heels unna shoe chupi babu ani"
then he showed me one pair and said"idi one inch untadi "karke
nenu koncham peddadi chupi heel ani adiga ee sari
oka shoe techchi"idi two inches saar annadu"
inkoncham peddadi ani adiga
he was pissed off by then but did a good job not showin it out.but went to get one neways
he got a pair of em and said "idi three inch heel sar" ani
nenu full happy appatiki, kani inka "ASA" inka peddadi dorikidda ani adiga HEHE
daniki vadu serious ga DORIKKIDDI SAR ANNADU.nenu ventane full HAPPY
KANI LADIES SECTION LO CHUDANDI ANNADU hahahahahahahahahaahahahhh
potta pagilipoindanuko
Theres a freind of mine vamsi karke.We both belong to the same gang in college.ok.We had a test in community medicine ok.None of us were prepared,it was a surprise test.Exam duration was two and a half hours ok.I was done ANSWERING, in about two hours.I looked at vamsi and found him writing seriously(EYE BROW RAISED).hehe,taking a lot of additionals in the process.ok. i dint USE a single additional.Then i left.half an hour later, it was lunch time all of us gathered at the canteen.I asked one of my friends,who came late from the examination hall about vamsis whereabouts.i was surprised to hear that he saw vamsi pleading the invigilator for five extra minutes to finish.That remark turned quite a few heads cos we all were SO used to seeing vamsi,come out of examination hall atleast half an hour before the stipulated time.
then finally vamsi came to join us.
i asked him:entra tega rasesav karke
he replied: telisthe rayatam kashtam gani teliyaka pothe entaina rayochchu karke(laughs)
i said"aina inta sepa"
he replied" paper lengthy ga undi ga"
i said" section one parledu only section two lengthy" (there are two sections in the paper each consisting 8 questions )
he replied" oh shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! inkoka section unda and turned the paper to find SECTION 2(he dint know till then that there were two sections in the paper too much)" and found eight more questions to his disbelief heahahahahahahaahaha
the whole canteen erupted
just imagine .we answered both sections and returned in two hrs and this guy answered one section and was pleading the invigilator for more time mind blowing hehehehe.nine additionals anta hehehe. couldnt help but feel sorry for the examiner ahahahahaaaaha may his soul rest in piece
Just out of college????.Its perhaps one of the toughest phases,mentally, of anyones career.BEING in college ,for such a considerable period of our prime lives, we tend to get used to a routine and its tough to get out of that initially.We miss having fun with friends in college,talking for long hours,eating out,catching a movie,sitting idle,playing sports,participating in cultural activities,performing.Suddenly theres a lull in life.We feel,nothing much is happening around us.We tend to get restless.....Days,Months,YEARS,run past if you get nostaglic ,We had so much fun karke.You better get out of such a frame of mind.SOONER THE BETTER. You already knew this change was inevitable.................This is the time when life expects you to act more responsibly and leave the reckless ,irresponsible,lazy and fun oriented student in you behind.Sitting at home for most of the time can get very frustrating.,It gets our attention to such trivial issues and leads to frustration. you try hangin out, most of the time and lose valuable time.Its during such period that we might lose focus on our careers.Laziness becomes a habit and you run the risk of losing your competitive edge.This is when
one needs to Stay FOCUSSED.You need to strike a balance between having fun and working for your career.At the same time, dont lose heart when things are not going your way or getting delayed.Settling down is important,immaterial of how much time you take .so rememeber the three words
PATIENCE,PERSISTENCE AND PREETHAM...hehe sorry PATIENCE,PERSISTENCE AND PLANNING are the three keys words
i dont know why im writing all this to you.Hope you find something relevant.
PATIENCE,PERSISTENCE AND PREETHAM..Ill remember dat ! lol
And as far as forgetting preetham,...cant happen....never happened with any one before.PREETHAM ENTRY ICHCHADANTE .......HAPPINESS ENTRY ICHCHINATTE
ne happiness ki inka em doka ledu
PANDAGA CHESKO,PARTY CHESKO KUMMAI ANTHE
omg!!.. Cant believe that Preetham has actually written so much stuff here.. have u given up bloggin or wot?? hahaha
So hw u feeling these dayz.. m sure u r not feelin sluggish anymore..
hahaha harish ill get you sometime. i owe one heheh.i havent given up blogging but im believe im drivin her that way haha
um...i really dont know u, but this is in ref to one of ur orkut photos...just until yesterday u had a pic with the caption "thats exactly what i want"...i saw it just a few days back and didnt have the sense to save it...i sort of like it...i was wondering, if u dont mind, wether u could put it back in ur album...if its not too much trouble of course...its a small request...but it would really really make my day...ive tried searching for it but i couldnt find it...
thanx in advance
what ive observed is,when somethings really bothering me and i talk to a friend,about it, for the first time,i feel relieved but every other time i discuss, it only increases the misery due to unnecessary attention to minor details ....i think
Hey im tryint o upload that foto..i donno why im jus not able to do it!! sumthings wrong wit orkut or sumthing !! If u want..u cud gimme ur id..ill mail it to u..i wont post that comment anyways!
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